The world of split tounge
Still remember the saying, "the most dangerous place is the safest place while the safest place is the most dangerous place"? Well, it kinda make sense to me. Not everything, just half of it. Maybe I would have to take a few more decades to prove itself true to me. Coz for the other half of it to convince itself true had taken 18 years to do so.
When I found myself pretty in hard need for my closest kins, they seems to be so heartless towards me. Thinking that the world we're living might be containing some impurities like lies, back stabbing bla bla bla with them, I thought my "relatives" would be the closest and most countable party to rely on. But, the saying has proven me wrong!! They have betrayed me!! Lying me not just once, but uncountable!!
Still remember, before I started my journey pursuing my dream as an optometrist, my mum told me, "just go on and pursue your studies!! These are all we can do for you!! Don't mention about others, but, so long it's for your studies, we'll cover the expenses for you!!" What a great assurance that I have recieved from her!! Well, no doubt that they have contributed a lot for my studies but this situation was rather distorted when I found myself a part time job, when I started earning my "extra allowance", as they termed it during their persuasion for me to look for job. I were have to pay for the equipment that I needed for my upcoming year 2 studies!! and I was lucky enough to get my cousin to sponsor me when he striked 4D!! This time round, they refused to give me my basic pocket money allowance!! Reason behind it, I have gotten a part time job!!
But HEY, who was the one who initially said that my basic allowance would be given as per normal and whatever I earnt from my part time job would serve as my extra allowance?!! It was all from you guys mouth manx!! Best part is here, my aunt insisted, "How could you get your weekly allowance from us?!! Your having your holiday, and working!! Why must you get it from us?!!" Hehe, funny, so you meant when your boss give you bonus, the basic pay would be overlooked!?? Furthermore, holiday I will be hibernating away, not eating just eat the air, not going out, just stay at home?!! Who the hell is buying for my lunch?!! YOU?!! Hell no manx!!! I gotta pay for my own lunch!! And who on earth will fork out the money for my transportation fee?!! ME AS WELL!! I gotta pay for everything!! And the "extra allowance" that were said had become my basic allowance!! Manx, I'm getting sick of what they told me!! Their words are just so untrustworthy!! I wanna get out from this kinda vicious cycle manx!! Please help me!!
