when was it??
All right, you might wanna say I'm in emo state or what so ever. But, I really wanna ask myself, "when was the last time I was praised?? especially my relatives." I can hardly find any praises from my relatives, but the negative feed backs are vivid!! Sometimes I just wonder, what's so bad about poly students?? Besides, my course is in fact one of the most prestigious course among the available courses, yet all I the comments I received from my relatives are just negative feed backs like, "He just wanna choose the easy way out, He just wanna enjoy his life, He just wanna keep his hair and stuffs."Manx, who would be that childish to play with his own future?? I surely has my own reason to choose this path. The thing is that, has they really asked me bout it??No they don't all they know is just jump to their own conclusion and ends it there. Just like today,which supposedly to be a joyous day. My aunt Lucy's birthday. I knew that something would go wrong if I went for the dinner with my cap on. But, I have been wearing it from school, where do you expect me to keep it then?!! But I don't see anything wrong wearing a cap.. I meant, I don't wear it all the time, do I?? Well, that's not the only issue that I'm facing right now, my action of keeping my hair long for my last chance has also been pin pointed.Why can't they stop their stereotypical and look at it at another angle?? This would be the last chance that I'm able to look at how I would be like in long hair since I strongly believe that during year 3, I won't be allow to keep that in clinical. Besides, this is my teenager's period!! Don't I have the right to choose the path that I wanna tale myself?!! Ok, all they know is to look at me with all the negative viewpoints. Just like my cousin Jia Yi, who said that he wanna continue on with ITE, was greatly supported by them!! Manx, thats ITE!! and they were giving him all those great praises. What bout me?? Who has been achieving so many achievements?!! I'm a human as well, I need praises and support to keep on going and.. striving for everything, but what I gotten were just mere reprimanding and more demands. What have I done wrong?? Could you please tell me?!! I can't help it but throw all these sorrows of mine here. I wouldn't try to talk bout these stuffs in person cause I couldn't really hold back those tears that are rolling out from within.
Can I really live without all those kind of praises?? I'm glad that I have a bunch of friends who provide me with their kind words.. Seriously, I appreciate all of you!!
